gone but always by me


Before my brother passed away, I only really knew this word by definition, not by understanding.

Now I know grief.

I know the confusion, the torment, and the pain that the experience that is this word, holds.

I know that it is not a one-time hit.  

I also now know that once grief hits, it is a lifelong partner.

I am learning that grief is a partner that is to be acknowledged; felt and not ignored.

Not only is there pain because of the loss, but pain because life continues!

This is my journey through loss, as I pick up the broken pieces and build myself anew.